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Yes, I'm single again. Of course, I've always been "single," thanks to a beautiful open relationship and mutual understanding. But now, I'm all the more and very, very single. A whole new world is opening up to me, and I'll be damned if I'm going to hold back about anything at all as I enter a new phase of life, a new adventure.
My long-time, live-in lover is moving out. He's remained largely unnamed throughout the run of TaraTainton.com, which is just about as old as this newly ended relationship itself. Yet now, the man who played a major role in my sexual life for nearly a full five years is better known as Code Hard Cash, fellow amateur porn star. I don't need to mention that it's been a hell of a lot of fun together.
I don't doubt that he'll have his own personal site some day, and I'm going to continue to encourage him to grow and learn in the adult business as we both have together and introduce his own porn production studio to the ready world. It'd certainly be a site for sore eyes.
Yes, a bit of me is very sad, but change has been long overdue. And I'm really looking forward to being able to focus all the more on what I love... writing dirty stories, performing on camera, and producing porn for the masses. No doubt, there'll be more travel in my future as well, one of my biggest loves. And oh, the torrid erotic tales that is guaranteed to provide!
A million questions are running through my mind: half filled with excitement and half filled with pure curiosity. What will I be like as a fully single girl again? The last time I was completely without a sexual/romantic relationship, I was a completely mainstream gal. At least, in the sense that being involved in any part of the adult industry hadn't even entered my mind. I was living it, I guess. But not yet sharing it with the public.
Your WebMistress, the Girl Next Door Gone Porn
Just when do you incorporate mention of your porn career into the conversation with a new beau? Is it required on the first date? Should the shock of such knowledge as I share it with someone completely new be preserved for use as a hard, fast filter to weed out the close-minded and encourage the more open-minded? At what point does a new playmate, casual or serious, evolve into a workmate willing to participate in a public adult video with me? And who's to say my new singledom will be centered on a beau at all? Perhaps, I'll meet my first female partner...
Single in Sin City... how promising!
Of course, I know things will be strange for a while: emotionally, psychologically, sexually. I may even continue to work with my ex-live-in lover a bit. He is damn sexy after all... and that New Zealand accent... I'll likely grow all the more creative in filming sexy solo video. I'll have to. After all, sex for me, even when it's for work, is still sex. And I don't like to do it with just anyone.
I wonder whose cock will be on the tip of my tongue next. Whose body will I be exploring? Whose breasts might I be discovering? Imagine the thrill of that first new video to feature me with an entirely new partner.
I wonder if I could convince him or her to let me film our very first time together. The reality, energy, and electric charge of THAT scene must be completely off the charts!
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Tara's Trysts 
