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Oh, yes, it's true! I was just rummaging through my very small collection of VHS tapes yesterday when I came across a particular video I'd completely forgotten I had. I've even mentioned the existence of the naughty little video from my past to you here before... well, in past Tara's Trysts entries I have yet to move over and re-post since my recent site redesign.
What would you do for the chance to see me, your WebMistress who you've witnessed evolve into an amateur porn star, in the very first erotic video I ever appeared in? Honestly, I can't even watch it myself - though, I'll have to in order to process it for your viewing pleasure - simply because it's so embarrassing! Oh, even thinking of it makes me feel the need to cover my eyes and cringe!!
This is true vintage Tara I'm writing of. This rare video and truly virginal glimpse of me, long before I emerged as a woman ready and willing and even eager to share more of herself so publicly, was filmed about... NINE YEARS AGO... nearly a full decade ago! It was Jan/Feb 2000 and also my debut as a porn director and producer as well... though I never knew the relevance or the historic meaning of the project at the time. I'd set out to create a very special, challenging, and surprise gift for my husband on Valentine's Day.
I only had access to one of those huge, clunky, VHS camcorders. The kind that has to sit on your shoulder because of its size and weight. I had no tripod and no film or photography experience. But I managed to set up, self-direct and record, and perform for at least three different solo masturbation scenes in which I danced, stripped, and played for the camera's eye only.
I was just 25 years old. I had yet to color or cut my long dark brown hair. I had yet to wear makeup. I had yet to shave my pussy. I had yet to experience getting drunk. I had yet to develop a boat-load of self-confidence that would enable me to be so less awkward and obviously shy on camera. VCRs were still in our living rooms around the globe. The internet was still used primarily for casual chat in funky little chat rooms filled with crazy folk. I must've even had smaller breasts then... And I, without even knowing it, was a virginal adult performer... but I did know how to pleasure myself.
Your WebMistress Circa 1999...
a few months before filming her first erotic video!
The husband of my long ago past really loved the videotaped gift. He watched it over and over... for about a week or two before our relationship took a different turn as I decided it was time to go my own way. I confiscated the tape immediately, put way too much effort into its creation to destroy it, and hid it from my husband to ensure the incriminating sight was never used for evil rather than for good.
And I never realized another use for the vintage homemade erotic video until now. I guess it's time to use it for a good and grand purpose!
It occurred to me that I, as sole performer and creator of the video, have the right to publish and offer the video to the public... despite it feeling like the girl on that tape was someone else entirely. It was filmed, after all, another lifetime ago... in an entirely different life I once had. And I can share it now, as I feel totally comfortable and almost proud in doing, simply by finding a local service willing to convert a naughty VHS tape to digital form for me. I might just take care of that task this very afternoon. What else are Sundays for?
And what a perfect time it is for the former Tara to finally come out in the open, show off her younger assets, and introduce herself to the friends and fans of the current Tara. This classic video was a product of one period of major change and new sexual experiences in my life and now, I'm beginning yet another.
It's time to refresh, renew, and make a vintage video debut!
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